I’m not sure if I’ve shared this one with you before, but I am a rather bitter and angry person, and that bitterness sometimes spills over in to abject contempt.
Social protocol. They’re great things, aren’t they? They are so helpful for navigating our way through the vagaries of our impossibly complex day to day existences.
I am looking for the easy ability to strike up a conversation without ending up wittering something elaborately boring, or sensationalist, just because I have got carried away with the weirdness of being in a conversation.
Every time I feel comfortable in a friendship group, it all falls apart, and I learn that I was never one of their friends after all.
I find conversations really hard work. I am shy, I am awkward and I am not the most comprehensible person when I speak.
I have spent a long time wrestling with depression and social anxiety. My way through is not everyone else’s. Let me take you through it, as a form of an example…
If I know I’m about to have a tough time I like to put on a favourite t-shirt: It provides a sense of comfort.