I didn’t mention to her my paralysing fear of talking to people; she wouldn’t have understood me.
To my mind, the idea of generating ideas for a business, for finding a gap in the market and then demonstrating that it is possible to exploit that gap for financial gain, is akin to magic.
I find it odd that the precise moment I am in most need of my full faculties for self-promotion and pushing myself forward, I am at the lowest ebb of confidence in my own abilities.
Is it a bad thing that I am participating in this process, even though I now know that I realistically do not want the job, even if offered it?
The only people I know, or have met, who are doing the jobs they dreamed of are the professionals, and they are tremendously boring.